Thursday, June 01, 2006

What Might Have Been

I know it is never healthy to think of the "what ifs" of life, but sometimes you can't help but think of what could have happened if you were five minutes earlier in a meeting or if your bestfriend gave you a teddy bear instead of a Barbie doll on your 10th birthday or if you had chosen to date your more attractive suitor. It's sometimes fun to look back and be amazed at the realization that our life depends on the decisions that we make.
Here are my what-might-have-beens...

  1. If I didn't study in Miriam, I would have studied in an equally good school that is far.
  2. If I pursued my ballet classes, I would have reached the toe-shoes level but most probably have quit ballet by now.
  3. If my Mama did not leave for the US, I would be happier.
  4. If I had the money, I would have at least a pair of Jimmy Choos.
  5. If I did not have my hair curled, I would not love my hair now.
  6. If I was not born, you would not be reading this fab blog.
Okay I have to stop here. I just realized how hard it is for me to go back, try to hold on to what's been done, and think of what could have been if this happened or not. Waaahh... labo. The feeling sucks. I guess Jonathan Larson in his musical "Rent" (which is a favorite) is right in saying: "Forget regret... or life is yours to miss... No other course, no other way... no day but today." I guess there's no need to hold on to the past. No need.

3 comments:

That Squirrel said...

Very nice thought...I sometimes wonder what might've been if this and that had happened. I usually think we should live without regrets because what ever happens, happens for a reason. But that doesn't mean there aren't things we don't regret doing or having happened. If only it were so easy to let go of things about the past that you wish wasn't part of your past like that really geeky/ugly phase in school, choosing the wrong college degree, trying to please all the wrong people etc. There is really no need to regret and hold on to these but if only...!

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